Why do u look the same, even though i have changed.
Why do u get to decide the time to show up.
Why do u stand out from the rest.
Why am i jealous of u.
Why.
6:40 PM
Moonlight shone ~
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Saturday, September 26, 2009
Deep in the Night. [Would u care to listen?]
The urge to release my frenzy is even more tempting.
The night is black with red and it seems so triggering.
I am sicked of the boring nights and I want to make it more exciting.
While everyone was sleeping, i performed a 'ritual'.
Hypnotised myself to Let the rational righteous take a seat and be out of the way.
Arriving to the Gate of Unknowns that was sealed away, the night was still the same.
There is a signage that glows Seekers will be Satisfied.
I wasnt going to back down just because of the ominous atmosphere it emits.
Thinking to myself rather, this would be a life-time opportunity to witness something unprecedented.
Without much hesitation, i moved ahead, intending to climb over the gate and reach the house beyond that is in sight.
In an instant, there was a voice that echoed: "That's right, my boy. I having been anticipating your arrival." I stopped in my footsteps, feeling the chill down my spine.
There came the sound of chains clanking against the iron gate, within moments, the gate opened inwards, inviting me.
At this moment, I feel a sudden ecstasy.
As i passed the gate, I thought i saw the words on the embellishment of gate when the soundless lightning flashed across the sky. "CEMETERY OF E....."
Each step forward took an even more burdensome pounding of my heart.
I am both THRILLED and TERRIFIED of the unknowns as i walk along the pavement ahead, unable to clearly see the things around me, but could only differentiate the path through the difference in shades. It was unusually quiet without the sounds of the crickets across the field and i felt uneasy breathing in the stale air.
I came to the house after walking alternating sections of stairs and pavement repeatedly.
I gave a few knocks on the door and the surrounding started to fill with crows' noise, adding to the ominous feel.
I was expecting the door to open, but instead i was asked: What do u seek in us and Why do u seek us?
Being bold and impatient, i exclaimed: I seek pleasure of course! And werent you expecting me!?
A sinister laugh emerges and sound as if laughing right into my ears. I feel dizzy, in a wink, i was in a brand new place. As in, I've got to a place where i wanna be.
Muahahaha. I ravished, I killed, I dominated in just 1 night. Nothing was more pleasing when i could set the rules, select the targets and execute as planned so perfectly.
I AM THE KING OF MY WORLD
Time flies when i was having fun. The voice emerges again to disrupt me, to tell me it's time to end as the day approaches. Alright, i was transported back to the gate of cemetery, this time I was able to read it: CEMETERY OF ENIGMA.
The next night, i couldnt wait to enter my own world again. I took an early sleep (by force).
The voice: Greetings, my Lord. Cant wait to enter your world? Hahaha...ha
I continued to wage my destructions and did more creative refinements.
It goes night by night, week by week, month by month, year by year, inevitably becoming my routine and way of life.
I grew emotionless and sadist in thinking. The kind of man i despised. It becomes clearer to me.
Its presence in me has become so distinct over the years, the inner voice has been able to emerge subconsciously in my daily activites.
One night, i decided to end the terms with the 'voice'. I went in search of the house in the cemetery, but efforts were in vain. There was no pavement, no stairs and no house. Even the night was pitch dark this time round.
I roared: SHOW YOURSELF!!!
Hideous cryings and howlings began to sound.
All these just make me even more fired up when i felt terror.
"WHERE ARE YOU! U COWA..!"
Before i could complete my sentence, i was teleported into a place with the likes of a house, right in front of the mirror beside the fireplace.
My reflection moved on its own to take the cup of drink while looking at me.
"Where do you think i am, pal."
With that, he took a sip and began to grin menacingly.
AHHH! I got startled and sat up straight in a lightning speed as if given an electric shock. I find myself already breaking into cold sweat and fists clutching so tightly in the middle of the night.
The night in the real world is still in its red and black. Thinking to myself, what have i done...
Freaked out and staring into space, the inner voice spoke again.
"Why do you fear me? Why do you think you were capable of going into your world without entering the gate anymore?" (pause)
"It's because i have been growing, and u have become more reliant on me!" It ends with an arrogant tone.
Since the first night, it is decided that my life will carry on this way. Why do u think i told u all these? It's to prevent you from ending up like me! Or should i put it in such a way: IT'S AN INVITATION TO ALL WHO DESIRES. JOIN ME IN THE TRANSFORMATION!!!!
ekkHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEKEKEKE!!!!!!!!!
1:42 AM
Moonlight shone ~
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